a heartwarming surprise. =)

When it hurts to look back,
and you’re scared to look ahead,
you can look beside you and
your best friend will be there.

a lil introduction, from left : nadia,meda n me.

so,here is the story.
i'm going away soon.real soon.to further my study to be exact.
so,parting is one of the things tht you'll found
once you had a meeting.
so, thnking of our farewell,
meda came up with an idea.
to surprise me.
her sidekick : nadia.

3rd May, 2010

it was a very busy day for me.yupp.BUSY.
with all the magazine distribution stuff,
matriks' preparation, going to bank and all,
i couldnt meet up with nadia n meda.
i was so UPSET.really.
so after arriving home,around 5 pm,
i received a call from meda,asking bout where I am
at tht moment.i thought she wants to meet,
but she said, she nearly home.
so, again, i was frustrated.
with tht feeling, i sat in front of the laptop
and start brwsing here and there.
about 10 minutes later, i heard sound of car's engine.
my bro said, a swift was here.
so I went to take a peak,
to my surprise, nadia n meda came out from the car.
with a bouquet of roses.
2 white roses to be precise.
combined with purple flowers.
my FAV colour. =)
a farewell surprise for me,
and I love it so much !

thanks meda and nadia.
wish that our friendship will last till my last breath.
friends like you are gift sent from God.
i'll miss both of you dearly.
v(^o^)v

i love the flowers.so much ! thanks !

We all take different paths in life,
but no matter where we go,
we take a little of each other everywhere.

Stars.Bintang

“You're like a bright, shining star.
When I receive that light,
I feel brighter and also darker.
When it’s bright I get my hopes up,
and when it darkens I feel disappointment.
I hate myself for this and feel ashamed.”

3rd April 2010 - A date to remember.

"Even little hope can makes people sad and cry."

3rd April 2010
TVXQ stop their activity for unknown amount of time.


Nothing last forever... *sigh*

My faith is shaking ?

I doubt that.

Once a Cassiopeia means forever a Cassiopeia.

in other words,

till the day I die.


Seriously, too much to handle today.
Too many tears.

A little time for myself... QUIZZING!

Got this from my unnie, Aizamia's blog. lol. feel like doing it! =)

Q1 : The latest 5 names in your message inbox.
$ Alia Amira $
$ Keyrah $
$ Milin $
$ An An $
$ Fizah $
$ Nuyin $

Q2 : Your main Ringtone
$ Lupin - Kara $

Q3 : What you did at 12 last night?
$ lately, i tend to sleep early. tired doe! ahah. $

Q4 : Who was the last person you went out with? where?
$ Alia, Fizah, Malin, we went to KPTN carnival, kfc $

Q5 : The colour of the T-shirt you're wearing now.
$ creamy mo.. ahah. $

Q6 : The last thing you did.
$ sms-ing $

Q7 : 5 of your everyday favorite items.
$ my phonny $
$ d lappy $
$ my car's key (yeep, newdriver duhh) $
$ my shawl $
$ my flash memory ;) $

Q8 : The color of your bedroom.
$ creamy creamo with hello kitty face on d carpet $

Q9 : How much money in your wallet now?
$ ohh, last time i checked, there was RM30, dunno now. $

Q10 : How's life?
$ theres some ups and down, oh well, trying to make it colourful $

Q11 : Your favorite songs
$ all TVXQ's songs for sure.. and some kpops. lately, been into english songs again. thnks to fizah $

Q12 : What will you do next weekend?
$ counting for my bloved besties to come back from nz. gosh i miss her ! $

Q13 : When was the last time you saw your mum.
$ now? lol. $

Q14 : Where is she now?
$ right next to me, watching tv. $

Q15 : when was the last time you talked to your parent?
$ just now. 2 second ago. $

Q16 : Who is the last person that talked with you last night?
$ my beloved bro, bachi. $

Q17 : Where did you have dinner last night?
$ no dinner. just a lil snack in d evening. $

Q18 : The last surprise you got.
$ my bday bash! thanks beloved besties! $

Q19 : Last thing you borrowed from your friend.
$ pen ! $

Q20 : Who is your bf/gf or husband/wife?
$ dont have one for now. =) i'm a good girl $

Q21 : What do you feel now?
$ lonely ? hehe. missing my bestie ! come back soon will you? $

Q22 : Wanna share with who?
$ nobody but me? lol $

Q23 : Who knows your secret?
$ umm, which one? lol. $

Q24 : They keep your secret?
$ think so. emm. $

Q25 : Are you angry with someone?
$ nope. bcause no one tease me these days. lol. $

Q26 : What do you order at McD?
$ spicy chicken McDeluxe please! $

Q27 : The last time you felt so sad.
$ when i woke up from my bed this morning,
n just now. $

Q28 : Who will you tag next?
$ nobody. lol. $

A Thankful Heart =]

"You can only be young once,

but you can always be immature." - Dave Berry

26th February 2010

Heppy 18th Birthday Ekah!

So, this young girl is now LEGAL.
It's been one of the great birthdays ever.
I've grown up,
and yet,
I gotta admit that i'm still
IMMATURE.
Lol. Yupp,
I'll try my best to
minimized it.
But I can't promise anything.
Love me for me k!

Surprise birthday cake from my brother n sis in law.

To : My 2nd Bro
Happy 31st Birthday
You are a year older now,
but of course,
you'll stay childish all the time
Its hard to tell that u r 31 now.
I'm sorry,
I'm not a great sister
and of course,
I always troubled u
but I really want you
to know that,
even though i rarely said it
out loud, but I do,
truly love u my bro!
=)
Wish you all the happiness in the world.


Lots of my friends sent me touching messages
for my birthday which makes me teary...
=) Thanks everyone.
ILY till death!



Be careful for what you wish for…
but be thankful for what you have.

"P", you are mine now.

A thankful heart is not only the greatest virtue,
but the parent of all other virtues.

25th February, 2010
Bye bye "L", hello "P"

After debating with my driving teacher,
finally I was forced to take the JPJ
test on Wednesday.

I was so scared that I can't breath really well,
feeling like there's a butterfly in my stomach,
and of course, I kept on going back forth to
the toilet.

Thank goodness Nuyin was there for me,
at least her presence gave me some strength,
such a great supporter. =)

My lucky number for the day is 11.
Mine was in session 2 which started at 11 am.
Luckily, I passed the circuit's test greatly.
and for the "on the road" test,
I got a nice JPJ. ^^
En. Samsuddin.
Thanks for being nice to me! =)

For the circuit's one,
I would like to give all the credit to
Nurin Sabihah Ray,
for teaching me everything
and being patience with me.
You are such a great teacher,
loyal supporter and of course,
AMAZING FRIEND.
ily. :D

And for the On The Road,
my credits goes to
En. Mohd Rozi Seman. haha
abe G G G G~ ^^

I was so happy to passed the test
and was smiling all day!
Haha, and Nurin treated me lunch.
What a nice things. ^^
Thanks dear.

It was a great day!

Friends, Bbq and Surprise! Bonne Fete!

Thick and thin, tall and small, fast and slow.
Tell me who is always there for you. I am sure you know.
Your best friend, of course, don’t let them go.

21st February, 2010.
12.oo - 6.30 pm
(5 days before my actual bday)

It was supposed to be a normal bbq party,
but then, it turn out to be a surprise birthday party for me
and one of my friend, Malin.
I was speechless as I saw Syakirah, Dayah, Fizah and Raihan
coming from the kitchen, singing "happy birthday"
with a cake.
At first, I thought it was for Malin,
but then it turn out to be for both of us.

Thank you everyone,
*.*Fizah*.*
Raihan
Syakirah
Dayah
Milin
Lala
Malin
Nurin
Tikah
Mirah
Nani
For the surprise and the memories.
Actually, those thought of yours
are more expensive than any gift in this world.
I will never forget this moment.
I'll keep it in my heart until the day I die.
I'm so happy to have friends like all of you.
=) Thanks.
I love you so much. ^^

your smiles makes me happy

thanks for the love.

bye bye my lappy =(

“A box without hinges, key, or lid,
yet golden treasure inside is hid.”
- J.R.R Tolkien

probably when I'm writing this,
my beloved lappy is already half way towards KL.
my bro is going to fixed it.
Gosh I'm so missing my lappy.
I wish u'll "recover" soon.

Dear lappy,
although u r just a simple n normal lappy,
but u r always by my side.
although u r not d most expensive lappy,
but u r my bestfriend.
through u, i can see the world,
see my beloved TVXQ,
u connected me with all of my beloved friends.
the moments u crashed,
i felt like my whole world is dark.
almost everyday i've been hoping
that u'll be fixed.
I miss you dear lappy,
please come back with a healthy u.
Take a good care of my TVXQ's treasure.
(~_~)

An hour of solace.

How beautiful a day can be
When kindness touches it!
~George Elliston

I woke up today, with an empty mind.
It was too empty, I rarely have anything to do today.
I watched from far as my niece was dancing happily to a
cartoon's song.
Usually on days like this, I would be waiting for
my turn to drive for my driving lesson.
but it's been 2 weeks now since d last time I went there.
Before this, all I wanna do is being home,
as the sayings goes,
"home sweet home".
But now, being home is something that I really wanna avoid.
It's not like I hate being home,
its just that, I have nothing to do. Nada. *sigh*
If this continue, I might end up like Oneday members in the pic below.


As d day passes, I decided to call one of my bff.
Danfiz.
Its like a weekly routine, as every friday evening,
I would call her.
As always, Danfiz will greet me with her warm voice.
So we chit chat about lots of things.
Things dat happened to us, our friends and
of course, on how we r feeling.
We would exchange our thoughts,
advise each other and on and on.
She know me well, since we've been friends
for a 5 years and 1 month now. =D
She was the first person ever who called me,
"Che"
and bcause of her, every1 started calling me
with that name. =D
It seems that, when it comes to Danfiz,
I can just be myself as she'll know the song in my heart
even though i didnt sing it out loud.
We trusted each other very much,
as we'll share every little secrets that we have.
Thanks to her, my boring day is brighten up.
as we talk, time passed real fast,
an hour later, we bid our farewell.
One week from now, I'll call her again. =)

Dearest Danfiz,
I know I'm not a helpful friend,
but I'll do anything to help u.
That's my promise.
Thanks for trusting me,
and thanks for always being there for me.
You r d friend who'll give me comfort
whenever I need a shoulder to cry on.
I'll do the d same for you.
I hope that we can be friends forevermore.
Till our last breath.
ily. =)

I would thank you from the bottom of my heart,
but for you my heart has no bottom.

Friends.Kawan.Teman.Sahabat.

The best love is waking up to your best friend everyday!

Lately, I was always wondering about the words, "friends"

"Am I a good friend?"
"Can I give comfort to my friends who needed it?"

Lots of thought came to my mind. It makes me think about it day and night.
Sometimes I would wake up in d middle of the night,
just to find myself thinking and wondering.

"I hve u to heal me to be prcise." - Feb 2, 2010. 21:33

Those words makes me think again, will I be able to heal them now?
Take away their pain when they are hurting?
I really wish that I can be there for them when they need me...
but I just don't know how to give the comfort that they needed. =(

To my friends, I do wanna be there for you.
Yesterday.

Today

. Tomorrow. and Forevermore.
I wish that our friendship will last forever.

[Poem] Wish For You

This is a poem from fans for Jaejoong in conjunction with his birthday..
It is a nice poem which makes me wanna cry when i read it..
Since sharing is caring, so.. here it is..=)

-Wish For You-




What should I wish for your birthday my hero??

For the disband rumor,,
Should I wish for all cassiopeia to always Keep The Faith?
No,,I won't wish that..
Coz I know that without my wish cassiopeia will always Keep The Faith..

Should I wish that you'll always together with the other members??
No,,I won't wish that..
Coz I'm not GOD and I know as a human,,someday we will leave each other..
But I'm sure that your soul will always together till the end..
Maybe sometimes many of them said that you're too pretty as a man..
should I wish for you to become more manly??
No,,I won't wish that..
Coz I love you the way you are..

So,,what should I wish for your birthday??
I only know one thing..
I only need one thing..
I only wish one thing..

YOUR SMILE

coz your smile is everything to me..to all cassiopeia..
your smile make us strong..make us know that nothing impossible..
coz your smile change my world..

I only wish for you to always smile..
you're smile is my everything..

-Happy Birthday My Hero- "

credits: Netty Cassiopeia

Jaejoong changed his hair color! =) looking good at Gimpo Airport, yesterday 260110. leaving to Japan along with Yoochun and Junsu =D

[JAEJOONG] Heppy Birthday from your Byul.

Kim JaeJoong
Happy Birthday

26th January 1986, you were born on this earth, pure and innocent.
26th December 2003, your first stage, a fidgety filling you.
26th January 2010, your 24th birthday, a celebration together with fans.

26th January 1986 – 26th January 2010

All these years, from a pure and innocent kid to an admirable talented singer; your hard work, to us is a line of poem written in our memories, but to you, its a treasure that will be beneficial throughout your whole life; your distress, to us is a sand in our eyes, but to you, it will be a lesson that forms a strong support that will aid you in future; your success, to us, its a happy injection to our soul, spiritually, but to you it’s like a strong wave within your heart, which is beyond beautiful.

Only believing in you, following you

No matter when and where, we will be there for you.
If you are well, it will be a sunny day, we will accompany you to the ends of the earth.

Source: Naver + BaiduTVXQ
Translation: sshutingg @ OneTVXQ.com
Special Thanks: ミ♥ Lovedust @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }
Feel free to repost, but please leave the full credits intact. Thanks!

It's Jaejoong's Day !!

My 5th year celebrating Jaejoong's birthday since I first discover him and the DongBangBoys! ^^
He always makes me smile with his laughter and funny stories.
He is like a sculpture with a soul.
I'm dedicating this post to my ONE and only, Kim Youngwoong Jaejoong a.k.a my love. =)

he used to have this mysterious image and a "pink" aura since he is prettier than most of the girls in the world, yupp. including me. *sigh* but that is why I LOVE HIM!

gifted with a great voice that can touch everyone's heart... whenever i listen to his voice, i'll melts. how can someone could sing that way?! well, if you know his past, you'll get teary. He'd been in lots of difficulties, he wasnt originally born with that voice, but he worked hard for it. =)
Thats why I'm proud with my Jaejoong! ^^

there were lots of pain from the past, hidden behind those eyes of Kim Jaejoong. But because of his strong heart and determination, here he is, giving his best to make sure TVXQ give nothing but the best to the fans.


Thank you Kim Jaejoong...
for your voice that light up my life...
for your laughter that brighten my day...
for your sincerity in everything that you do...
Thank you Kim Jaejoong...
for making me believe that there'll always be rainbow after the storm.
and for all the happiness you brings to me. =)


I wish that we'll be able to celebrate not just your 24th birthday, but also your 34th, 44th, and 100th. =) That's my promise.
I'll be the cassiopeia which will keep on shining on you and TVXQ =)
I'll always keep the faith. Hope till the end. Yakusoku~

- ekah. from december 2003 till forever -